Everyone ready to Refill?  

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Eminem has decided to Refill instead of releasing his much anticipated Relapse 2 which is delayed to early 2010. Refill is going to be Eminem's re-release of Relapse. This special release is going to be titled Relapse: Refill. It will include 7 newly recorded songs in which 2 of it are Forever (feat. Drake, Kanye West and Lil Wayne) and another is Taking My Ball. I am highly anticipating the 5 other songs. It is scheduled to be released on the 21st December 2009.


Despite being a little disappointed that Relapse 2 will be delayed to early 2010, I'm glad that Eminem would be releasing bonus tracks/ The Refill for all hip hop fans.


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Update  

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Everything is good again and I'm glad for it. However starting from today, I will probably be very busy with assignments, tutorials, classes, readings, business plan competitions, exams and so forth. I have been spending the last couple of weeks reading the same Audit and Business Law textbooks! It is no longer like Year 1 because as a Year 2 student now, I gotta constantly make sure that I am up-to-date with all lectures. Well, I look forward to the Year 2's challenge that is ahead and I hope I will do well this year with another First Class as my main aim again.


Hopefully everything goes well. I hope to write more in the meantime but I will only do so whenever I have time. Alright, that is all for now. All the best to all my fellow friends and wish me luck, guys.

Until next time,
JhnT

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Sh*t Happens  

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Right now, I feel like sh*t because I slept at 2:30a.m. and I woke up at 5:20a.m. I have class up to 6p.m. today and only expected to reach somewhere between 9p.m. to 10p.m. with the possibility of it being even later than that. Sh*t happens and it screws my whole day up with the possibility of also screwing up my whole bloody week.

  • Call me selfish but I thought and thought hard for you. If you call me selfish, aren't you as selfish too?
  • Maybe you call me not being caring but being caring is never one of my attributes. I try and tried so hard, did you acknowledge that and appreciate my efforts? If you call me not caring, are you very caring?
  • I trusted you but how did you pay it back to me? By screwing up my faith and trust in you?
  • You want things to go your way but what about things my way? Do I need to live an entire life of only following your ways?
And the list goes on.

Why do I live in a world of accusations and fake promises? Before anyone judge me for the bloody sake of knocking me down, please think hard of all the things I have done for you before you knock me down. I'M SICK OF EVERYTHING AROUND ME!

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Life Like This  

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I'm honestly hating my life. I don't feel as happy as I should. I'm sick and tired of so many things. Just as I'm writing this, I remember a song by Simple Plan titled "Welcome to My Life" which exactly reflects how I feel right now.


Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No, you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

I always feel like breaking down and if I can, I really would like to runaway to somewhere far away where no one knows me. Am I desperate to find something more? Well, I don't really know about this but as far as education is concerned, I am not desperate to find something more. I certainly agree that I am stuck in a bloody world that I hate. Anyone with me?

Well, I guess just like the how the chorus was sung, "No, you don't know what its like to be like me".

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~~Love Quotes~~  

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Distance never separates two hearts that really care, for our memories span the miles and in seconds we are there. But whenever I start feeling sad, because I miss you, I remind myself how lucky I am to have someone so special to miss.


Hold my hand and I'll take you there, somehow, someday, somewhere.


A relationship is a two way street. It's never your fault or the other person's. You go into the relationship together and work through it all together.


It gets better as we go, it gets easier the more we know.


I love you very much, because with you, I found a way to love myself again.

Love is not love which alters when an alteration finds. When life gets hard. When times change, true love always remains the same.


I love thee, I love but thee; with a love that shall not die; till the sun grows cold and the stars grow old.

~~Dedicated to Becky Bi~~

All quotes are courtesy of some wonderful writers. All pictures are courtesy of my wonderful summer back in August 2009.

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Unholy Promises  

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What does a person understand by the simple yet strong word of 'promise'? Every hear and there, it is easy to listen to someone telling another about their promises. And too often, one breaks a promise too. So, why do some still keep promises when usually it means nothing at all?


Promises can come in many sense such as vows, affirmation, oaths and even notable in financial point of view. In terms of affirmation, it is only right for a person to promise and declare that something is true yet it is common for a person to still sell counterfeit products ain't it? Oaths being a promise upon which the oath maker made with God as witness that every statement are fact and never lies yet many witnesses or accused still fake the fact ain't it? Financially or economically, when a person makes a loan and signs an agreement with the financial institution, it is with the promise that the person will be obligated to return the loan in months or years to come yet many loaners would default ain't it? Of course, the most special, the strongest promise are vows specifically wedding vows yet you all should know what I'm coming to now ain't it?

Sometimes it is too easy for a person to make a promise that he/she would never do or repeat an action to another. Of course, it is easier said than done most of the time. I've listened to promises by so many people but as many as I've trusted, the promises were broken; eventually. It is normal to hear about broken promises but why am I taken by a shock each time it happened?

It is all too common for couples to make promises. Some needs to be done together and some needs the particular individual to take responsibility by himself/ herself. Isn't it too common when the same promise is broken over and over? And when a conflict is resolved, the promise would be made again and yet, it will be broken as soon as another stumbling blocks is ahead of the couples' path. Sometimes, one may promise that one would not repeat the action again and when it is broken, one would simply say that one would not make another promise but in days to come, the promise would be made yet again and only awaiting to be broken.

I shall share one marriage vow off the Book of Common Prayer, "To have and to hold from this day forward, for better for worse, for richer for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, till death do us part". It is such a strong vow or a strong promise to be kept when it is promised. If simply promises cannot be kept, how can anyone ever keep this strong promise for the rest of the life or like its said in the Book of Common Prayer, 'till death do us part'?

One might say the other individual is also breaking promises but some promises are difficult to fulfill. For instance, one of the most common vows made a pair of couple would be to avoid any arguments whatsoever but to live up to such vows, it requires the two person to work together and it is never a single person responsibility. In order words, this is a multiple individual promise such as friendship promises, which requires every individual to be responsible for a promise. Another kind of promise is the single individual promise (usually to another individual), for example, when a person in court takes an oath, the person is obligated to tell the truth as part of the promise made in the oath.

I guess everyone is living in a world of broken promises. If that's the world we all live in, why do some still make it an effort to value promises? Is it worth the pain when the promises are broken? If so, does that make anyone worth trusting to? Or perhaps just like what William Shakespears said "Love all, trust a few".

Just some thoughts while I'm resting and recovering from flu, sore throat and slight fever. Back to more important things now. Until next time, ladies and gentlemen.

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The Beginning of A Long Year  

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The new degree year has already started. I was looking forward to it after a long 4 months break. There's so much that to look forward to after being in first lectures of all my 6 modules. I have to admit that by the end of yesterday's lecture, I was a little intimidated by the prospects of Audit and Business Law to be a really tough module. However at the very same time, I do look forward to the challenges ahead and I will do my very best to do as well as I could in not only these papers but all 6 of them. And it feels great to be back to school again especially meeting my friends whom I had not seen at all for the past 4 months! It is great to finally see all of them again.


There isn't much time to waste because as soon as the course has started, I am sure that time passes rather amazingly quick. In the blink of an eye, I will see myself rushing towards assignment deadlines and as soon as that is over, it is perhaps time for exam preparation which would ultimately mark the end of another degree year. Skipping classes is not an option anymore, neither is being lazy. Extra efforts has to be made to step out of these habits.

As I look forward to visiting China again in January after my mid-term exams, I have to be made aware that I have to be at my very best completing assignments and tutorials before I could actually go there. Perhaps, visiting China in January could be a good idea as I would be in need of a good rest after what I am expecting for daunting months ahead. Staying out of all the pressure for a good week would be a perfect way to relax as I prepare myself mentally for the 2nd term of the 2nd degree year. Of course, it is important to be with my loved one in that particular week.

Right now, my aims are simple yet it could prove to be tough to achieve. One of it is to do very well for all 6 modules that I have chosen for my 2nd year degree studies. After that, I hope to go for a 2 - 3 months internship during my summer break as 1 month will be dedicated for travels with my loved one. 1 month of travel is definitely something I really need after a long year being apart from her. I honestly can't wait for that month when she finally comes here. There are so many places that I would like to bring her to visit in August 2010. I'm looking forward to another great summer break after having such a wonderful summer break with you in Hainan. I am really looking forward to having another great month with you in August. Of course, I will be seeing you in January 2010 but it is only a 1 week stay. August 2010 will be another time of our life again. I'M WAITING FOR YOU!

Being apart from someone you love is really hard especially when the person is thousands of miles away. We had to endure all the comments and criticism that long-distance relationship is impossible and it wouldn't last long. I'm glad that both of us managed to prove everyone else wrong and as far as I'm concerned, we will continue to prove everyone wrong. At first, it was extremely hard to deal with but as time goes by, the relationship only gets stronger. The stronger we get, the stronger the bond, of course the need for one another became more but the stronger bond helped us to deal with the excruciating pain of a long-distance relationship.

I do hear how some people would end a relationship whenever long-distance comes into play. Of course, it is something hard to accept and bare in mind that if I do have a choice, I wish my relationship is not a long-distance one. Nothing is better than being with the one you love day-in and day-out. But basically, it is fair to say that a long-distance relationship is something possible and myth about it being hard to manage is just a myth after all.

In my own version of my very own love story, it started off with our first day of relationship as we counted towards our first month. The first month seemed to have took forever before the first month actually became our first month. Even in the first month, there were slight conflicts but it was amazing how easily we dealt with it. We started off counting the days we are together. Days seemed slow when we were far apart. Nights seemed cruel without you next to me. The heart feels so lonely like its an empty room only filled with the echoes of my heart calling out for you. All these are the challenges one would face even in a normal relationship but even more so in a long distance relationship. Conflicts and arguments are bound to happen but we never ever let it be a reason for a separation. We faced every challenges we had and to date, we already amassed to more than 1 year being together.

I'm also glad about the prospect of my current relationship with my loved one, Becky Bi. We managed to overcome every obstacles we faced and of the late, we start to see very few of such obstacles. Even if there's more, I vow to fight and overcome in order to achieve what we both want most which is to be together. I'm glad how we have our own visions for our future which is only about 2 years away. We have set our sights on Australia and also with the aim of using Hong Kong as a stepping stone. With our visions set, we have to work really hard in order to achieve it. That is one big challenge we have for ourselves but I'm very confident about us overcoming it just like how we overcome so many other challenges with some being really hard and harsh challenges. I honestly am really looking forward to face these challenges and ever more so, I am looking forward to the future. WE ARE ONE AND ALWAYS WILL BE.

Basically in life, all we face are challenges be it education, love, family, health etc.. Things would turn out to be the way we want it to be as long as we make an extra effort to make it all happen. Giving up and slacking are never an option. The only option one have when one fails to get what one wants is to only work harder. Similarly in my relationship, we always worked harder to overcome our obstacles to have things the way we want it to be which is to be together forever.

That is all I got to say at the moment. I will be busy for the next few months, thus, I am not expecting myself to write more these days and probably only the weekend for a few short updates. Until next time.

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随便的  

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我最近很无聊了。每天没有东西做。可以做什么呢？很长时间没有上课了，因为我们有四个月假日。有四个月假日，但是什么也没有做到。六月和七月，有两个月在家没有做到什么东西。没有去internship，也没有工作。我也有说过我要学习中文，但是为什么那个两个月我真么懒惰了。什么也没有学到。每天拿书出来，但是每天没有读到。浪费整整两个月的时间。我不可以浪费时间了！


八月我去海南。八月是我的 best time of my life so far. 每天和我的亲爱的在一起。真的高兴。和我亲爱的在一起的时间，全部很好。好想你。好想我们的八月。跟你在一起我不用向我们的难过时间，因为在你身边一切是美好的。我记得我们的八月在海口，博鳌，三亚，蜈支洲，亚龙湾，保亭。好想你。我现在要你在我身边。回马来西亚的时间好难过，离开你的时间很难。但是没关系因为 2010年 1月和 2010年 8月我们可以在一起。

不知道可以些什么了。我要休息一下。后来我打算学习中文。我应该可以说中文很快。但是我也知道中文是非常难。如果我要会说中文，我不可以浪费时间了。我必须加油！

Well, at least I try writing something in Chinese. It wasn't easy as it took me some time to write something this short. After all, I never write too many in Chinese. One of my first few. I will continue to learn more to further improve. And from time to time, I will write more Chinese posts in here.

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Jay-Z: The Blueprint 3  

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I've been listening to Jay's 11th album. The Blueprint 3 has finally been released and I'm not disappointed by it. Despite not being as good as The Blueprint 2 and Reasonable Doubt, Jay's latest effort is still a rather solid and decent album.


It features 15 solid tracks but I'm a little disappointed because the song 'History' isn't featured in this album. It is another good Jay-Z album. Hip hop fans should check it out.

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Untitled  

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It has been a long time since anything was posted. I have been nothing much apart from trying to learn Chinese, do some readings and watch a couple of shows. I will resume my degree studies in 3 weeks time. Pretty excited about the things that I am going to learn in my 2nd year. Definitely more challenges and tougher things to learn too and that is why I am anticipating it. I definitely need to work harder in my next term of degree studies because I didn't do as well as I expected in my 1st year and also getting nearer to starting a whole new life in the working world soon. Thats about it, guess I gotta work harder and participate more things in the next term and learn more Chinese in the meantime.

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